As I have mentioned in my previous posts, I am training toward a fighting event in a few months. When I first mentioned to my peers and friends that this was something that I was attempting to do, I received noticeably different reactions.

Some of my peers thought that I was (and still am…) crazy! I don’t know that I disagree with them. Frankly, I have some doubts myself about the sanity of putting myself in such a position (but not enough to call off the whole thing).

A few of my friends suggested that this was pretty cool.  BUT most of them think I will back-out before the event occurs (and that certainly is a possibility)…

SO… I wanted to explain WHY I am fighting….

I think it is much more complex than the raw machismo with which some would label this.  In fact, in spite of being cognizant that I need to have a positive head-game to win, I actually do not believe that I will win.

The odds… are certainly not in my favor…  (Then again, that understanding might be the fuel that powers this current obsession.)

Let me keep it simple:

“I fight because I need to know if I can…” (DEWism)

I need to know one more time that I have the will NOT just to win BUT to endeavor…

This might seem remarkably naive…  But it is about the only way to describe how I feel.

I wear a suit to work and strategize over multi-million dollar business deals when inside I feel like I should be in an arena with Russel Crowe fighting gladiator-style — its almost primeval in nature…

That’s how I feel….

I fight because there is more of my part of the world that I need to conquer…

I believe that you have never truly won if you have never been through the pain of bodily challenge — the exhaustion that marks the end of willful human capacity — and emerged victorious over self and surroundings…

Business like athletics is a challenge of how hard we will push our ourselves… I win in the future because i fight today…  And so, because winning requires fighting… I fight!

“Pain, discomfort, fatigue, failure – These are maturation processes that fuel the confidence of tomorrow’s endeavors…” (DEWism)

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